this year is turning out to be so much harder than i had anticipated. i'm looking forward to it being over more than i probably should.

also why are the only people that talk to me on aim anymore fucking porn robots

i should probably not have shit like this up on a public blog.

first friday was awesome. we all hung out, ate delicious food, and saw SO MANY DOGS. i'm so glad i asked to take pictures of this one, ugh look how fucking cute it is i'm dying.

i've been working all summer and it's nice to get out and actually enjoy parts of it. i'm going to a show tomorrow and will be dead on wednesday, but it'll be worth it. at least i work at a coffee shop so i'll be able to wake up pretty easily.

i'm slowly but surely starting to freak out about going back to school. oh my god senior year? i have to be a real person in less than one year? THIS IS FUCKING TERRIFYING

i went to the long beach aquarium the other day. the shark tank is my favorite part. i think this baby was pretty stoked on it too.

my heart is broken.

i love that dog more than life itself. she was an extension of me.

lacey/lacina/laceroo/my sweet girl, i miss you so much. i'm glad i was there for your final moment. it was so hard and i hope i made it easier for you.

my beautiful wonderful sweet and slightly crazy dog is being put to sleep tomorrow. my parents took her to the vet today and they found a giant tumor blocking off her urethra, making her unable to urinate. her bladder was filling up and if they didn't find that out, it probably would have exploded and she would have died at home, very painfully.

this feels like a bad dream.

tonight's her last night.

this dog has been with me since i was nine. i can't.

she's so fucking wonderful and my heart is absolutely shattered and i don't know how to cope with this.